Last week I ended a relationship with a woman whom I started seeing about 1.5 months ago. She made it clear that she was not looking for a friends-with-benefits situation early on which is fine with me, and we both agreed to take things slow.Continue reading “I kind of wish it was me getting hurt”
Probably a really silly thing to write about, given how many individuals exchange affection on a constant basis: I experienced my first intimate moment with another person recently after what seemed like an eternity.
Been meaning to write and kept putting it off and/or forgetting to due to life. Had a much-needed talk with the ex, earned a promotion at work, maintained a consistent workout pattern, started a garden, and said no to numerous pizza temptations.
I’ve been regularly eating healthy since march and exercising the past 1.5 months, almost always in the form of running.
I was encouraged to start writing about my emotions as a means to facilitate my emotional expression regarding loss and grief. I’ve never kept a journal nor really taken the time to really think about how I feel about certain things, and I think this is going to be beneficial exercise.
Starting to do the above was actually the motivator to moving my site to a new host, which was quite a bit of fun and will save me about 120 a year on hosting fees, so a plus on multiple levels.
I’m going to tag posts related to this subject with ‘therapy’ so they’re easily searchable (or avoidable).
I was promoted today from Sergeant (E-5) to Staff Sergeant (E-6). I want to say that I’ve worked really hard to earn this, however the more I think about it, the more I realize that I don’t do anything out of the ordinary [for me].
I wrote too soon. I judged myself and my actions far too quickly without looking at the larger picture.
Essentially, my reality was obfuscated by the delusions of another, and I believed so much in their world, that I lost touch with my own world.
After finding out the depths of the lies and deceit, I felt sad only because I fell for the trap. This sadness, luckily, was short lived, and when I was able to process all of the information, I realized that this person was quickly burying themselves in the web of deception.
Feels good, the clarity.
I’ve made a series of decisions the past many months and now I’ve put myself into a position where life is shitting on me pretty hard.